To Do

There are times when one wonders "what next". Little "stability" is required.. but I guess I am having an overdose. So I am deciding to pen down what I wanna do in next few years of my life - I did n't have to think hard, here they go:

• Family well-being


• Shot at Entrepreneurship


• Make a Home


• Teaching


• Travel the world


• NGO


• Writing a book

Few years down the line I will re-look these and.. smile at myself and say "well-done"!

Hyderabad Calling

My free time is a thing of past..
My hangouts are long forgotten..
My Life has been changing rapidly..

From late night movies to late long hours over phone..
From restuarant dinners to expensive weekend shopping..
From Friday night pubs to candle light dinners..
This is how my life is changing..
And I am feeling good about it..

Life has been good so far..
But everything good has to end..
For something better to start..
And in this better part..
'I' gets replaced by 'WE'..
'Me' gets substituted by 'Us'..

Ladies & Gentlemen, Friends, Batchmates & Colleagues..
We have something grand to share with you..
Surbhi & I are tying the knot..
November 29, 2008 is going to be biggest day our lives..
City of Nizam (Hyderabad) will be glad to host you..
All the arrangements have been made..
Your tour shall start on Nov 28 with a Sangeet programme..
followed by the Grand Finale on Nov 29..

Personalised Wedding Cards shall take some time..
Treat this as a VERY VERY PERSONAL INVITE from both of us..
Good Wishes from each one of you will be our pleasure..
Better part of our lives has just begun..
And the BEST is yet to come..

YOU

The books are on the shelves,
The shoes in the shoe rack,
The clothes in the wardrobe,
And the papers in the appropriate files,
Everything is there, where it should be,
YOU are the one missing!

You are the one missing when I close my eyes,
You are missing when I walk alone on the streets,
I have no graphic picture of yours,
I cannot define you in words,
You are just a thought,
You are just a wonderful feeling,
It does n't matter who you are, or what you do,
For all that matters is the belief that YOU exist,
The belief that you too think of me, dream of me,
The way I do.

Darkest hours of the day are just before the dawn
And the dawn is just the matter of time - TIME TILL WE MEET !

Inflection Point

One subject that I relish talking to humanity is 'marriage'. Can't help passing a smile when I try comprehending the amusing little activities that these soon-would-be-brides/bridegroom undertake, their insight into what marriage means to them, their expectations post-marriage, their ceaseless phone conversations etc etc. As a beholder, the entire setting appears exciting.

Oflate, I have fallen a prey to this marriage syndrome. Was taken by surprise when discovered that people from well-wishers to friends to complete strangers were so keen in knowing my future plans (Yes, 'future' is the euphemism they use for 'marriage'). I would be lying if I say that I have never contemplated over this, but frankly speaking I am clueless when I think of it.

The scenario is all the more tricky for souls who fall in my category - those who are not seeing anyone. Not that I am the most desirable bachelor (or come even close to that), still at times the expectations are high. But then try being pragmatic, and the hope is for atleast a suitable match ('suitable'????).

So much at stake and so little one can do about it. Perhaps, this is the charm of the entire thing.

SNAFU

25-Jan-06: Can anything get better or worse than this!! If yes, I am getting ready for that now!!

SNAFU

Loathe this reclusive exitence,
But want no company either.
Innumerable secrets to share,
But none to trust.
Amidst friends all the time,
But still alone.
Life seems like a paradox,
But will not be the same hereafter.
Sounding like a cynic,
But this is how things are now.
The smile does n't show up,
Situation Normal All Fucked Up.

No Time!!

The following few lines struck me during the Marketing Seminar today!! Slightly on a gloomy note!!

No Time

No time to solve the heart and mind strife
Is this what we call life?
No time to think, and thoughts are n't clear
All I think whole day is a 'bright career'
No time to eat, no time to sleep,
Forget about time to retrospect and to weep.
No time to keep in touch, to wail,
Thankfully, we have the boon of email.
No time to pursue things that I want to,
Just doing things because I have to.
No time to wonder if this can be called pessimistic,
Or is it that I am being realistic.
No time to wonder how days are passing by,
Is this the only way to climb high??

On the path..

How does it feel when you try something that intimidates you?

I was a kid and the the very mention of it used to scare the hell out of me. I entered college and it still remained a terror to me. One fine day (with lot of apprehension) I tried to break these shackles of self-imposed fear. And then I bought 10 shares of TCS at 1115. Why?? May be I wanted to give it a try - May be I wanted make some easy money - May be I wanted to do what many others are doing day in and day out - Whatever may be this 'may be', but I did it - God knows 'WHY??'!! My state was very similar to a person who tries alcohol for the first time without knowing 'WHY the hell he is doing it'!! Interesting!!

This was the first time.

Now what did this do to me!! I started reading the most dreaded newspaper ('The Economic Times'), switched from MTv to CNBC and saw those scrolling numbers everyday. To me, they are still numbers, but I am sure 'someday' they will not be mere numbers to me.

Look at the transformation - From a timid guy who was scared that he may lose money if he makes a wrong choice, to a guy who believes that you must take risk if you want to move ahead, otherwise you will have to join-the-mob!

Previously, my 'only' respite from pressures of work was to compose a mail and wave a big big 'hi' to my friends! At times, I felt what a time-kill this is - but my options were limited. Now, I must confess, at times I even forget to check my mails. I visit moneycontrol.com more often than hotmail.com! I am just loving it! Guess, the more I speak of it, the more I will like it!

Never thought I would be able to talk about these plummetting and rising stocks with my colleagues, friends, my dad!! Never thought that I will blog on a topic like this!! Everything that is happening is 'Never thought of...'!! I hope, in future, I do lot many things which I never thought I would do!!

All I would like to say is - "There is nothing like uninteresting subject.. there are only uninterested people."

cheers..

PS: for all those inquisitive souls - I sold my TCS shares at 1160.

Poem: I am Sorry!!

Without a care, without a fear
Was moving with life with no one so dear,
Then came a friend whose words
immediately struck the chords.
Desultory walks under the moonlight,
Serious talks and moments that were light,
Felt comfortable like never before,
Wanted to give more, more and more.
No pretensions, whatsoever,
knew, we will be together - today, tomorrow and forever.
Could n't have asked God for more,
A friend to respect and adore.
Every moment spent together was precious, priceless
The concern, the care, the love - all selfless.
laughed, played, and together everything we shared
Life can't be more blissful, felt like I am blessed.


Today I have this love deplete,
And suffer with the feeling of incomplete.
I acted stupid, I was insane,
Nobody else, but myself to blame.
I apologised and accepted my fault,
cried aloud, "come back friend" with all my heart.
Not once, not twice, many times
Candidly, honestly, with no lies.
Can you not forgive me once
Can't you give me another chance
I need you dear
No more I can endure.
With no one to listen to my grief,
I better keep this one brief,
Don't know what I should do,
But certainly, I will wait for YOU!!